savasana, or corpse pose, is basically laying flat on your back on the yoga mat.
And then staying there.
When I was doing yoga in my 20's, I always snuck out of the studio during savasana, which indicated the end of the class. I was doing yoga to have a nice butt, I didn't have time to lay around and breathe. Which is exactly why for some, this pose is considered the hardest of all the yoga poses because seriously, I'm not the only one with that mindset.
As I've gotten older, I have learned to REALLY appreciate that pose...to need that pose, that permission to just rest and be.
And basically that pose has been the majority of my yoga practice the past few days.
You know those glimmers I was talking about? Ideas are forming, tumbling, growing and spinning around in my brain.
I feel that familiar internal push to get these ideas-not even fully formed-out there. Hurry, hurry, the inner voice says. Must keep up with everyone, must stay out there, must stay visible, must do the next big thing.
This is my pattern. I get an idea, I like the idea, and then I throw it out to the world without ever fully understanding, learning and mastering that idea.
NO. I can't keep doing this...keep driving myself nuts with this desperation to throw out anything that comes to my mind in attempt to be accepted or popular or relevant or any of the other adjectives going through my brain right now that make me sad.
It's sad that there's a part of me that is motivated to do things so I'll be liked and noticed. I hurt for that part of me. Lately I've been feeding that part of me ice cream cones whenever she comes up. But since being on this challenge...and now that I have accountability (love ya'll)...I can't do that.
This challenge is not just about doing yoga and not eating meat...it's about what happens when I do those things. Making conscious choices. Paying attention to what is happening internally.
So instead, I'm lying in savasana and listening.
It totally sucks sometimes.
But this time, that's okay.
8 comments:
its funny, when doing yoga in a class, i love the corpse pose. but, if doing yoga at home, i lie there for a max of 60 sec. its almost like i have been given permission to lie down and just breathe when i am in class, but at home, i dont allow myself the same privilege. tonight, im going to allow myself, give myself permission. thank you for the gentle nudge :o)
x
I can totally see that...not being able to give myself permission..needing someone else to.
I hope you enjoyed your rest time!
I went to a yoga class for about a year and savasana was my favorite pose! But then I'm a natural couch-potato so I was just getting into my usual position. :)
But here's to making conscious choices and paying attention - whatever you end up doing I know it will be wonderful.
I hate savasana, not because it is boring, but because the natural curve in my back makes it fairly impossible to enjoy lying on my back.
rochelle...ha! 'natural position'-love it. :-)
pirate-I've seen people do the pose with their knees bent up...I wonder if that would work?
Well, that's actually what I do, but I feel like I'm cheating or something. A classroom full of corpses, but "oh, look, this one died with her knees flexed...!"
I really like balasana for what you've described.
Love your insights, Brandi -- so dead on! And the bent knees really do help get the kinks out of the spine and make everything "settle" nicely. <3
lol..see pirate...according to Linda, you are actually the smarter corpse for bending your knees.
Linda...great point!
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